Seed.....time.....HARVEST

Wow. Just 2 minutes ago I didn't have a title....really. i didn't. i just had one thought and the next one was to blog, then came a reminder. and honestly, i probably have 2 or 3 subjects in this brain of mine but we'll try for one thing at a time. see, i'm learning that lesson again. oh, there is so much i'm learning. and its funny really b/c you would think if God intends us to live one day at a time (James 4:13-16) ; then why in the world does HE choose at times to teach SEVERAL lessons at once??! well, we won't get ALL of our questions asked here on earth, thus we must continue on....and in that continuing on, we must be CONTENT. now, i can't blog regarding the "contentment" issue at this moment in time b/c i simply have to study that, and haven't yet. it is on my list! probably this week. see, i'm coming out of darkness (again). it was really rough this time. relatively short lived, but intense however. so, one of my "lessons in the dark" is that i need to learn contentment on a DEEPER level and also learn of it enough to share what i know. so, that is for next time...
today, i want to focus on this simple idea: seed....time.....and harvest. (Genesis 8:22). for most of us, we see the SEED, and we anticipate the HARVEST. however, isn't there something in between? something that is extremely powerful and important? i've heard it taught this way: you should really stop and pause between each word there. Seed.......T I M E.....   ........  ........   ......... HARVEST. think for a moment, how does this change your outlook? it was hard for me. we hear a lot about "just believe, just believe and receive". now, i totally get and have lived by this concept. but there's an important issue that we are skipping over. we are to believe and believe for BIG things. however, we live in this thing we call 'the world' and because of that,we don't always see or get to have things when we should or the way that God intended in the beginning. i personally think this world brings along so much JUNK with it, that its harder than just "ask/receive." now, i'm not wanting to place doubt or frusteration in any ONE thing you are believing for. what i'm trying to do is alleviate a lot of the frusteration, depression, and funk we find ourselves in WHILE WE ARE WAITING. and what a better time for the enemy to come against us. i've personally been waiting on some things for a long time, for years. remember Abe and Sarah. i can't help but be reminded of their story. (Genesis 17). WOW!! if you just need a little encouragement, read that and stay there a while.....it still amazes me!! anyway, i can't help but think of how LONG they waited on their precious GOD GIVEN son, Isaac. (Genesis 21) can you imagine the JOY? see, it all starts with a promise. In Chapter 17, God PROMISED ABE. and then, well, there was still time......but to have the faith of Abraham. Thats who I admire, and Sarah as well. She laughed at the thought of it. (Ch. 21). I would have too. and to be honest, i have had those moments. "me, God?" "really?" . "hmmm"...... haven't you? i've had a few......and i'm still having them. Now, I must switch gears a little, but not to much. Last Thursday, I had a moment. I'm not entirely sure I am to the "laughing" point yet, but I will say this, the Holy Spirit dropped a bomb. and I need to clarify that the Spririt is always GENTLE and LOVING. so, perhaps "bomb" isn't the best word, and truly to be fair, i've heard something like it before so maybe its not a good description of what happened at all! but, until I get used to it i can refer to it as i please. it was about day 4 of this trip to the desert. i was more than ready to "come out" but i guess i hadn't been paying enough attention to be able to yet. so, in all of my "frusteration" of the battle (call it trying to do things on my own or what have you.) i finally looked up, threw my hands up to God and just simply asked "WHAT?????!!!" "WHAT IS IT YOU WANT FROM ME??! ITS OBVIOUS YOU ARE TRYING TO GET MY ATTENTION AND FOR WHAT, PLEASE???!!! no, i didn't scream it. but had i  not been in a public place, i might have. i DID carry on a convo at a table for one. i decided i didn't care who thought i was crazy, because i needed an answer. i couldn't go on anymore. and, well, i believe i got one........a BOMB of one. wow. wow. all i could do was STOP dead in my tracks of thought (i was sitting) and say "oh my God, o my God, o my God....that's it." now i meant that very reverently. sometimes its just all I can say, and i'm going to say it, and i said it aloud. and then i proceeded with the ever so typical: "are you sure? really?" ........"okay, then." "what next?".

Serenity NOW!!!

The Serenity Prayer


God grant me the serenity

to accept the things I cannot change;

courage to change the things I can;

and wisdom to know the difference.



Living one day at a time;

Enjoying one moment at a time;

Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;

Taking, as He did, this sinful world

as it is, not as I would have it;

Trusting that He will make all things right

if I surrender to His Will;

That I may be reasonably happy in this life

and supremely happy with Him

Forever in the next.

Amen.



--Reinhold Niebuhr



Trust in the LORD with all your heart

and lean not on your own understanding;

in all your ways acknowledge him,

and he will direct your paths.



Proverbs 3, 5-6

Desperation

Well if I had to post a mood status I think it would be quite difficult. While i expect today to be much better than yesterday, im still working on it. i kind of wish i had some reasoning to go along with all of this but i don't. been down all week, and part of last week. i can barely concentrate, feel like i'm in a fog at times. very frusterated and can't seem to shake it. one thing and the only thing coming to mind is my desperation for God. like an unquenched thirst or hunger, im there. i want more. i want to go deeper and deeper to where i know nothing but Him. We are almost right in the middle of Lent and that means different things to everyone but i happen to be learning something new....temptation isn't always in the form of something material or physical. it may or may not be the thing we have chosen to "give up or do without" thats tempting us. for me, its been an all out "anything goes" tempting. the temptation of negativity, carelessness, laziness, frusteration, wrong thoughts/attitudes/actions. its all the same. typically, i don't allow myself to get so "low" that these things have a chance to manifest or become obvious to anyone, however i must recognize there are forces of darkness that want nothing better than to trip me up. and, it can be the simplest things. it doesn't have to be a huge circumstance. its as if anything and everything i attempt to go and do (just normal everyday things) get interrupted, delayed, changed or stopped. and i have to say, the little things get to me the most. like why can't i just get out and try to go about my merry way without everything having to be so hard or some kind of ordeal. its as if i've lost my peace in life. i don't know why, i suppose we don't always know, but it happens none the less. one teeny tiny incident can ruin every bit of progress we are making or trying to make. so what's the lesson here? im stuck. normally i can just say to myself, "well obviously you haven't been checking your agenda with God's lately". but i thought i had. one of two things:1. i am either absolutely off on some tangent in life and left God behind, or 2. i am EXACTLY WHERE I AM SUPPOSED TO BE AND THE devil HATES IT. perhaps you have been dealing with similar thoughts. lets ask the Father, and see where we get.....and by the way, we should always be desperate for more. so, maybe i'm just trying to get used to that, my "new skin" so to speak, or lack of. (i.e. flesh vs spirit)

Wow. I need to blog.....

and now is not the time, however, at least I am recognizing that i NEED to do it!! its been TOO long!! until i have more time , check out my other blog: http://butterfliesnfireflies.blogspot.com/ ENJOY! God bless you in March!!!
P.S. MY HUSBAND IS HOME!!!!!!  WELCOME HOME LOVE!