day 5

I am still so overwhelmed. I am hoping getting this out helps  - and somehow will reach others to help them. My heart is so heavy. My mind feels gone. I have a thought and then I can't remember what it was or where it went. I want to help as much as possible but I realize God is giving me time to recover. I don't even know what I feel mostly. Sadness. Guilt. Shock (still). Mentally, physically emotionally, every way its like there's no words...
I realize there are those who are dealing with MUCH worse things. Devastation and grief beyond my comprehension. My prayers continue to be with them. I keep thinking do what you can do - pray, and be available to the best of your ability.
Also, I know that the recovery is such a long road but God will be our guide and will be with us every step of the way. I pray I can be the hands and feet He would have me to be. "Thy will be done...."

Let your steadfast love, O Lord, be upon us, even as we hope in you.  Psalm 33:22